randomizing the things i want.

There are so many things rumbling in my head right now. That even at this point, I’m doubtful if I can really render what’s happening. I want to scream, not because I’m in rage. I want to scream because something heavy is pulling my chest down. I’m feeling too much pressure inside that I just want to burst, pop, explode into bits and bits of pieces.

I want to breathe. I want to let it out. I want to know how.

I want to rant because I wasn’t able to buy ice cream earlier. I had to buy something else. I want to eat something cold despite the pouring rain. I want to indulge. I want chocolates, the bitter-sweet kind. Dark.

I want to talk about Yu. I want to say why Cinnamon is interesting.

I want to shout because I had one class today. The professor didn’t show up. I want to share how I found out that I’ll be having an emo classmate this semester. I also want to share that I’ll be having a classmate who reminds me of Lord from Project Runway Philippines.

I want to feel better. I’m getting woozy with Camille’s invitation. The scent clung inside my bag. So whenever I’ll open it, the scent rushes through my nose. Not to mention that it smells like car scent. Don’t worry Camille, I’ll try to attend.

I want to share how excited I am for TriNoma’s mall-wide sale. And at the same time, how it disappoints me because I won’t be able to exploit this opportunity for an obvious reason: money.

I want to solve the mystery of the disappearing undies.

I believe that…

1. People who are angry at each other about silly things are usually the ones who care about each other the most.
2. Most people think that nobody cares for them.
3. There is nothing such as “too much love”.
4. It’s better to commit mistakes than not to love and be loved.
5. As long as you love, you still have hope.

These things that I believe in are from The Love of Siam. The movie made me happy even if my insides are crushed. You can download it somewhere if you have an extra 1G in your hard drive. Go watch it!

Well, that was something random.